so in my attempt at procrastination, i stumbled upon this thing. i completely forgot i even had it. considering the last time i wrote in it, i was in valencia, its been awhile.

the rest of my time in valencia was amazing. i miss everyone and everything like crazy; ok i miss almost everyone, i dont miss my room mate, who i havent seen since weve been back, which is completely fine by me. i almost stayed over there and didnt come home. the only reason i came back was because i was sick of wearing the same clothes, i had no money, and because my tour fees were already paid for. ive already decided im going back after i graduate; i LOVE it there.

tour was absolutely amazing. im still sad that it was my last summer; i wont ever get to do that again, and it makes me incredibly sad because it was such a big part of my life for so long. we got screwed by the judges again this year, but i dont care because we were fucking fierce, and we all know we kicked ass; fuck the judges.

i absolutely hate my classes and just being on campus in general. i only have 15 credits, but i have 5 classes... LAME. and theyre supposed to be easy ones, i have 2 100 level classes, econ, an ethics class, and spanish. i have an 8 am 2 days a week and an 830 am the other 2; but i dont have classes on fridays which is nice i suppose. but i have so much homework to do all the time its insane. i have a philosophy paper due monday that i have a page of; but its only a draft so i dont actually have to finish the whole thing i guess. i have 2 exams on thursday that im completely dreading, and so much other stuff to do that my head is spinning just thinking about it. this is all compounded with the fact that i have recently become nocturnal; yes like an owl. i cant sleep at night, its just impossible for me. no matter how tired i am, i just lay there and never fall asleep. now sleeping during the day, i have no problems with that, i sleep like a baby during the day.

im not teaching this year, and its killing me. i never realized how much i loved teaching those girls until this year. even with all the bullshit i had to deal with, i loved teaching them. i taught a band camp at l'anse creuse when i got back from tour, and that was fun; i was supposed to teach there for the rest of the year, but its too far, and i wouldnt have been able to make it to rehearsal on time because of classes, so thats a bust. but speaking of jobs, i submitted my application to work in the caf today... yes, me, working in the caf. i need the money, and were going to stick with that. its part of my new independence thing... so far, im not off to a good start. but by the end of the year i want to be paying for my own cell phone, and i want to get most of the debt i have paid off. i dont want to have to depend on my mom anymore for anything; i want to have a car of my own by next fall; which probably wont happen, but its a goal that i can have for myself at least. im tired of having to rely on my mom for everything, and im tired of her ruining my life because she doesnt want me to do anything.

i miss these girls like crazy...



so many good times...

but i should get back to all the homework that i have to do so i can relax somewhat.... hopefully.

location: 148 north wonders mood: depressed music: Do It Alone - Sugarcult